its been a really tiring week. i've not been sleeping well. i never really had a good night's sleep. its been a long long week.

the image of sleep. in macbeth. lady macbeth and macbeth have not been sleeping well. repercussions?

back from obs, had a literature test, chinese test, and we're having a biology test next wednesday :/ well well well.

band practices were not really band practices this week. had to do instrument check on tuesday, had instrument stock check on wednesday, and normal band prac on thurs. performance coming up. 9 september. SL course. 8 september. teacher's day?

tireddd! :( got lots to catch up on. piano. homework. lessons. i'm loaded. with my own thoughts. maybe i'll just die like Suyuan in joy luck club. 'she died by her own thoughts'.

had been talking about school these few days. ever since we came back from obs. school is just a total turn off. at least maybe we come to school feeling happy to get to see our friends or maybe be involved in ccas. well. it was like this to me LAST time. but not now anymore. friends? just another load to me. its difficult to make your friends smile. or at least know that they feel happy when with you. or at least let you know that they accept you for who you are. and not just get a super freaky mood swing out of a sudden. like crap? or not even force you to tell them your results when you really dont feel like comparing. or wanting to seperate tables just because you feel like. cant you even spare a thought for the other party? make you laugh, make you smile. just to be satisfied. oh yeah. tell you all. i think i cant. i think i've failed. hey yeah they sound pretty STUPID. but they're hurtful too. i think i'm out of my mind.

friday. a super super unlucky day. started my day off totally eeked. woke up worrying about having to complete my social studies assignment, literature file, macbeth booklet, and my theory. withing the spare time in between lessons. was on a mad rush. had a great scolding from mr paul oscaby EARLY in the morning. what a great start. wth. he scolded me in front of everyone around me. when like.. i was just answering a question. i wasnt talking. hello?!?! YOU ARE VERY RUDE. -.- forget it. went to watch the joy luck club after school.. finished at around 3..reached home at around 340. rest for a while and it was time to get ready for tuition at 4. had tuition till 530. did my theory, and rushed off for piano at 6. piano till 730. and now i'm finally home. but the day's not done. i realised my brother lost my cousin's track pants and shorts and sport shoes. imagine how costly they are! oh no! then..ah i dunno. i'm too tired to think or continue further. tmr's church camp. till 7 on sunday. wonder how i'm gonna MANAGE MY TIME WELL to complete my homework and study for my test. GREAT!

i did practice. its just that i couldnt perform when i had to.
oh what's with this post so random with great usgae of enlish. with sarcasm intended.