EFFORT.
what's effort to them? what we do, they do not see, they do not bother, they choose not to notice, they choose to think that its just a little effort we've put in. even if the effort that i put in cant match to theirs, there's still effort put in. what's our best may not be their standard of best. if they still choose to think that we're not putting in effort, so be it. if they choose to think that they're the only ones TIRED, i'm so sorry to say that they're wrong. just ask any one of us. we're ALL tired. why put us down? respect? you want us to respect you all? you want the members to respect us and you all when you dont respect us at all? i'm sorry, i'm not up to your standard.

RESPONSIBILITY.
i miss the good old days. :/ now everything i do, every decision i make, i act with with consideration beforehand, i make sure that what i do is correct, i make sure that the decisions i make can only be right right and right. do they even care? no, not at all. it's getting really stressful in band.. where have the days of just enjoying playing a piece of music in band gone to? what i do wrong, is my fault. what the members do wrong, its also my fault. cant they even do their tiny winy bit to help? like ensure that their shirts are tucked in at all times, or even to just remember their instrument numbers, two numbers. just TWO.

oh wells.
i was the worst speaker for that baozhangriji thing, and i emphasize again, the worst, the worst, the worst. not that i gave myself that title. well the teacher did.
HOW GREAT. anyway, i know it myself too. i shall treat that a an opportunity for me to improve. right. i really reallyyyyyyy reallyyyyyyyyyyyy need to improve. I SHALL! (:

hohohohoho. lots of homework to be done. i dont know why i'm even online when i should be doing my work. i just feel like putting my books aside and go to sleep. forever?

career fair tomorrow. botanical gardens on saturday. hope they'll be fun! (:


BYE.

boo!

it's been almost a month since i last updated my blog.
well well, chinese new year coming up(:
nothing much to be excited about, besides the fact that i wont have to worry bout tests the next day or not being able to complete my homework on time for the next three days.

school's been really stressful. time's passing too quickly and homework's piling! :( i cant imagine the days ahead. i think i'll just die of exhaustion. life's getting really stressful. had this baozhangriji presentation thing on thursday. i was expecting it to be like a can read from the script thing and in the end penglaoshi came in telling us it was like oral, which meant no script, impromtu, and i had to get my thoughts ready by that moment. the worst thing was that penglaoshi wanted our group to present first. i totally freaked out.

really worried bout my chinese standard. i even have problems phrasing and constructing sentences. this is totally terrible and furthermore, olevels is like in 2 months time!:( penglaoshi's expecting 15-18/20 for baozhangbaodaos, and i'm still getting like 11,12? crap. ohwells. tired tired tired. please, someone tell me everything's gonna turn out fine. i just gotta work harder(:

-literature passage based
-two bao zhang bao dao(s)+bao zhang ri ji
-emath ex 3b, c
-amath ex 13 e,f,g
-chemistry worksheet+six sets of papers
-chinese workbook ex 3
-pictures for oral discussion+vocab book
-theory+piano

anyway, thanks to all for the valentine's day gifts(:
and ning, if you ever read this post, i still remember about the toothpick on sunday!
my memory's not failing too badly(:

i'm addicted to sleep, and i'm not proud of it :/