you need to be really reallly ego to write your own testimonial.
i hate that feeling.
and i've got to write my own.
yet now i feel bad. i dont know how.

time's flying.
i havent got enough time to revise.
probably its poor time management.
or maybe its spending too much time sleeping.

well, staying in school to do work is a good way to prevent me from taking afternoon naps.

silence is golden = shutup.
hiding in the second floor toilet, waiting for the bell to ring, running to the canteen. hilarious.

i need that someone, badly. :/
i dont know who's that someone.

i dont know who i am now.
i'm running, running as fast as i can.

and so are my thoughts.
flowing in all directions, making no sense.

tie me to a balloon.
no that's not enough. rather, to helium balloonS.
up, up, up and away.

我真的好累。

i had a dream last week.
in my dream, i was crying terribly.
i was crying becuase on my result slip, i saw a B4.
B4 for olevels chinese.
this sounds more like a nightmare.
no, i dont want this to come true!

12 more days to piano exam.
23 more days to prelims.
92 more days to olevels.
boo.

WIKIPEDIA (the free encyclopedia)

Insecurity is a feeling of general unease or nervousness that may be triggered by perceiving oneself to be unloved, inadequate or worthless. A person who is insecure lacks confidence in their own value and capability, trust in themselves or others, or has fears that a present positive state is temporary and will let them down and cause them loss or distress by "going wrong" in future. This is not to be confused with humility, which involves recognising one's failings but still maintaining a healthy dose of self-confidence. Insecurity is not an objective evaluation of one's ability but an emotional interpretation, as two people with the same capabilities may have entirely different levels of insecurity. Insecurity may cause shyness, paranoia and social withdrawal, or alternatively it may encourage compensatory behaviours such as arrogance, aggression, or bullying, a principle enshrined in the phrase "all bullies are cowards." Many people suffer a period of insecurity during puberty, which gives rise to a lot of the stereotypical behaviours of adolescents. Insecurity has many effects in a person's life. There are several levels of it. It nearly always causes some degree of isolation as a typically insecure person withdraws themselves to some extent. The greater the insecurity, the higher the degree of isolation. Insecurity is often rooted in a person during their childhood years. Like offense and bitterness, it grows in layer fashion, often becoming an immobilising force that sets a limiting factor in the person's life. Insecurity robs by degrees - the degree it is entrenched is the degree of power it has in the person's life. As insecurity can be distressing and feel threatening to the psyche, insecurity can often be accompanied by a controlling personality type or avoidance, as psychological defence mechanisms. Insecurity can be overcomed. It takes time and patience and a willingness to believe each person (and specifically oneself) is in fact of innate value. The first of Erikson's stages of psychosocial development details the challenge of finding security and learning to trust one's self and environment.

dont you think psychology's interesting?
(:

hah! yeah manxzx.
congrats you found your best friend.

I feel tired.
I just cant seem to get my scales right.
Oh well.
(:

Love is patient,
Love is kind.
It does not envy,
It does not boast,
It is not proud.
(:

i think i better stop eating so much and start cutting down on the snacks and unhealthy, oily stuff.
i've been gaining 0.1 kg everyday since the start of this week. terrible!

school's been rather okay. but i really need the discipline to start revising and self-study. boo.

recieved a letter today. and. it says:

Name of Candidate:
KOH HUI PING EMILY

Subject:
PIANO

Grade:
06

Date:
2/8

Time:
12:08

Practical Examination Venue:
CRISTOFORI MUSIC SCHOOL (JE 11)
BLK 135 JURONG EAST ST 13
# 04-325
SINGAPORE 600135

that's like in less than a month's time.
i'm not prepared. :(
ahhhh!

night-study on friday was quite okay.
managed to do a little of biology, a little of chemistry, and a little of amaths.
not really productive though. ohwell.

olevels chinese oral was a total disaster.
the topic was so unexpected and so nothing to say kind.
there goes my A.

i really cant imagine myself mugging for chinese again.
i dont want to have to retake the paper!
but ohwell. quite impossible now.

37 days to prelims.
how interesting.

why does everyone around me seem to be depressed.
i really do hope my friends will cheer up(:
you. you. you. you. you. and you.
six yous.

are you one of them?
hahaha. random.

k toodles.